Saturday, June 25, 2022

Happy 31st birthday, sLOVEnia!

Today my country celebrates 31st birthday. 

It seems like yesterday - when we declared independence and immediately after that the Yugoslav army attacked our country. Luckily the war in Slovenia lasted only 10 days. I will never forget watching the images of the bombing and tanks and crying so much, I was scared for my family (I wasn't at home during the war - I was an Au Pair in London that summer). I was just a scared teenager 31 years ago.

But the horrible war in neighbouring Croatia and Bosnia lasted 4 years.

Since the Russian attack on Ukraine I appreciate living in the free independent country even more. 

I wish from the bottom of my heart that the people of Ukraine will live in peace and freedom soon again.

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A photo: cute ducklings at a beautiful Slovenian alpine lake, photo taken by me

Sunday, June 12, 2022

You are competing only with yourself, not with the others

Have you read my previous post?

http://thenext15000days.blogspot.com/2022/06/done-skipping-life.html

I wanted to share with you the moment when I decided to attend the anniversary.

I have a friend who has a wonderful 10-year-old son. He got cancer when he was 3 years old and for many months it looked that he won't survive. Luckily we have good hospitals and they were able to cure him. He is completely healthy now.  But all the drugs left him with some minor learning difficulties. 

He has a silly teacher whose hobby is to make a special list: she sorts all her 25 pupils according to the average grades in the school year. This perfect little boy always comes in the last third of the list. 

I heard his mom encourage him before one of the tests: "You are competing only with yourself, not with the others." 

Exactly! 

I though to myself - if this brave little boy has the courage to go to the class every single day, I can have the courage to attend the anniversary once a year.

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What made me happy today: fresh cherries picked up by my mom.

Saturday, June 11, 2022

Done skipping life

We have a beautiful tradition with school-friends from high school (we were together from the age 15 to 19 years). We meet every year - first Friday in June. 

But for the last 15 years I didn't attend the anniversary. I dreaded all the baby talk & children talk & unwanted questions. 

This year I just decided that I am almost 50 and that I am done with skipping life.

I went and it was nice. 

It was lovely to talk about old memories.  

There were only three moments that I didn't feel comfortable.

1.  One school friend greeted the group when entering to the restaurant: "Do we already have any grandchildren??".  

2. One school friend boasted with his first two kids who are in early 20s and how he and his wife got a surprise third child and how a newborn is enriching their lives.

3. One school friend - a mother of two - asked me: "So Klara, how old are your children now?" She asked me the very same question in the last 10 anniversaries that I attended.

The remark 1 and 2 didn't make me angry nor sad - they weren't addressed directly to me. But remark 3 was. 

I am very glad that I did find the strenght and went. Why would I have to miss any more of the life?  I have missed - because of my infertility - already way too much.

Monday, June 6, 2022

A prayer

 


How to put million thoughts into few lines? I'll try. 

Yesterday  when I was cycling with my husband we passed by a church that had beautiful roses. I don't pray often but yesterday I stopped for a minute to say a prayer. 

I deeply admire the courage of Ukrainian people fighting for their country and for their freedom. The first prayer was for Ukraine and its people.

The second prayer was for me. I have just had minor surgery, skin cancer removal. I'm still waiting for the results of pathology. 



Saturday, May 28, 2022

Hallein, Austria



 

My husband had to go to Austria for one day and he invited me to go with him. It was a lot of driving, but I am very glad I went with him. On the way back we visited this beautiful medieval town: Hallein (very close to Salzburg). 

This one day road trip reminded us how much we love travelling!

Thursday, May 26, 2022

The seaside photos


I have spent 10 years of my life writing a blog about life after infertility. I am glad I've been writing about that - it has helped me with the healing. But now I think I am done with it. The infertility took away too much from me. Now I want to focus on the life that I have and enjoy in small things.

But even if I don't want to mention  that I don't have children, the fact is still there. I had a week off work and I wanted to go somewhere... just to change the scenery and have a little break. And I literally had no one to go with (my husband was very busy with work and all the rest have lives of their own that do not include having time for a holiday with me). 

Instead of regretting being so alone I just booked the room at the seaside and went alone. I had a lovely time! I did a lot of walking and I even swam in the Adriatic for the very first time this year. I also took a first cycling tour, the ice cream was delicious!





Tuesday, April 19, 2022

Mr. Jones


There are people who should never be forgotten. Because their courage helped the truth to be seen.  I admire Mr. Gareth Jones' courage deeply! Without him perhaps the world wouldn't even know about the horrible holodomor.

I watched the movie Mr. Jones made by director Agnieszka Holland:

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt6828390/

It is a good movie, but it is difficult to watch since the holodomor is one of the most horrible things that have ever happened.


Saturday, April 2, 2022

Invitation for a cup of coffee :)

 



I am sharing with you pictures from the favourite part of my country. I took a day off work to go for a walk here. It was just picture perfect (despite the cold wind). 

More info about this lake: https://www.bohinj.si/en/ 

More info about my country: https://www.slovenia.info/en 

Additional advantage if you choose my country for your next holiday: You can have a cup of coffee or tea with me :) 

Friday, March 18, 2022

The war in Europe

I love Lilly's latest post... her thoughts about the war in Ukraine are exactly the same as mine. I don't have anything to add, so I am just sharing her post:

 https://ablanknewpagebl.blogspot.com/2022/03/are-topics-i-wanted-to-write-about-in.html

 

 

Sunday, March 6, 2022

The world's children

 


I am sharing a beautiful article with you. It is from approximately year 1950. 

I was deeply touched by the kindness of Mrs. Kleinstein's father. He was a kind man who was blessed with nine children and yet he taught his children that we should consider the world's children our own. 

That's how I feel about the children of Ukraine. 

I am still not sure how I will help, but I am determined to help.



Friday, February 25, 2022

Ukraine

I live in a tiny European country. From the our most eastern part of the country to the closest Ukraine town there are only 5 hours of driving by car! 

The war in Ukraine. How horrible. I worry.

I checked the statistics of my blog and it was visited 237 times by visitors from Ukraine in the last 12 months. 

I imagine who are they,  who were reading my blog. I wish you all the best, my dear readers from Ukraine. Stay safe. 



Friday, January 7, 2022

Happy & Healthy New Year!

 


I hope this post finds you well. I wish you, my dear reader, a happy and healthy 2022! 

I recently discovered this beautiful song:

https://youtu.be/j8kS-7wkI7s

If the link doesn't work, do find it on youtube:

Je te souhaite une bonne année (Grégoire)

I love the song and lyrics a lot!  

I wish you all the good wishes from the song! 


The photo: was taken on the first day of the year, on a lovely walk with my husband. We did a short trekking in a beautiful valley Tamar in Julian alps. 


I recently celebrated 10 years of writing my blog. The writing has helped to heal my broken heart and soul. 

Here is the very first post:

http://thenext15000days.blogspot.com/2011/12/living-new-happy-life-after.html


Thank you for all of you who were there for me, supporting me with your kind comments / emails...