Monday, August 28, 2023

A beautiful sunflower & changing the number in the text :)


Has anyone read my bio lately?

I am a 50-something European woman doing what I once thought wasn't possible: finding happiness after infertility. While it's been a long, difficult and emotional journey (10 unsuccessful IVF treatments), each day I take another step down the path toward a fulfilling new life. This is my story of reinvention. I will be happy to hear from you: klara.soncek (@ )

I've just changed the number in the text :) 


Turning 40 was stressful. I had been struggling with infertility for the whole decade and I knew that if I didn't have a child by 40, it would never happen. So turning 40 and accepting a life without children forever was heartbreakingly hard.

Turning 50? Easy. I have learnt to enjoy the little things. No matter how small. Like admiring every day this beautiful sunflower I planted.

Sunday, August 13, 2023

Maybe You Should Talk to Someone


“One thing that has surprised Julie about going through the process of watching herself die is how vivid her world has become. Everything that she used to take for granted produces a sense of revelation, as if she were a child again. Tastes- the sweetness of a strawberry, it’s juice dripping onto her chin; a buttery pastry melting in her mouth. Smells - flowers on a front lawn, a colleague‘s perfume, seaweed washed up on the shore, Matt’s sweaty body in bed at night. Sounds – the strings on a cello, the screech of a car, her nephew’s laughter. Experiences - dancing at a birthday party, people-watching at Starbucks, buying a cute dress, opening the mail. All of this, no matter how mundane, delights her to no end. She’s become hyper-present. When people delude themselves into believing they have all the time in the world, she noticed, they get lazy. She hadn’t expected to experience this pleasure in her grief, to find it invigorating, in a way. But even as she’s dying, she’s realized, life goes on - even as the cancer invades her body, she still checks Twitter. At first she thought, why would I waste even ten minutes of the time I have left checking Twitter? And then she thought, why wouldn’t I? I like Twitter! She also tries not to dwell on what she’s losing. “I can breathe fine now, “Julie says, “but it’ll get harder, and I’ll grieve for that. Until then, I breathe.”
Lori Gottlieb,  Maybe You Should Talk to Someone 
I am sharing a happy photo, me reading at the beach in beautiful Dalmatia.We had 7 days of sun and 35 C and the last day was still warm, but very windy.  
I enjoyed reading the book Maybe You Should Talk to Someone really a lot, I loved it on so many levels. I liked many characters, I am sharing the quote of my favourite, Julie. 
I haven't been doing that well recently. I got very ill with covid few days ago :(  
I had very high temperature and bad headache. Now I am already a bit better, but I am still not healthy.  

Tuesday, August 1, 2023