“One thing that has surprised Julie about going through the
process of watching herself die is how vivid her world has become.
Everything that she used to take for granted produces a sense of
revelation, as if she were a child again. Tastes- the sweetness of a
strawberry, it’s juice dripping onto her chin; a buttery pastry melting
in her mouth. Smells - flowers on a front lawn, a colleague‘s perfume,
seaweed washed up on the shore, Matt’s sweaty body in bed at night.
Sounds – the strings on a cello, the screech of a car, her nephew’s
laughter. Experiences - dancing at a birthday party, people-watching at
Starbucks, buying a cute dress, opening the mail. All of this, no matter
how mundane, delights her to no end. She’s become hyper-present. When
people delude themselves into believing they have all the time in the
world, she noticed, they get lazy. She hadn’t expected to experience
this pleasure in her grief, to find it invigorating, in a way. But even
as she’s dying, she’s realized, life goes on - even as the cancer
invades her body, she still checks Twitter. At first she thought, why
would I waste even ten minutes of the time I have left checking Twitter?
And then she thought, why wouldn’t I? I like Twitter! She also tries
not to dwell on what she’s losing. “I can breathe fine now, “Julie says,
“but it’ll get harder, and I’ll grieve for that. Until then, I
breathe.”
―
Lori Gottlieb, Maybe You Should Talk to Someone
I am sharing a happy photo, me reading at the beach in beautiful Dalmatia.We had 7 days of sun and 35 C and the last day was still warm, but very windy.
I enjoyed reading the book Maybe You Should Talk to Someone really a lot, I loved it on so many levels. I liked many characters, I am sharing the quote of my favourite, Julie.
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I haven't been doing that well recently. I got very ill with covid few days ago :(
I had very high temperature and bad headache. Now I am already a bit better, but I am still not healthy.
