Merry Xmas in Ljubljana

Our Christmas isn't as I hoped it would be some years ago. But it doesn't mean it is any less beautiful.
 
Me and my DH just returned from a lovely walk. Ljubljana is just breathtaking beautiful in December.

Here are some photos.

You? You are married?

We had a New Year business lunch with coworkers. It was quite nice, lunch was delicious.  There were 40 of us. 

At one point somebody started to count women around our table (mostly aged 27 - 40, most of them have children) and counted that out of 12 women only one is married. I wasn't listening to that conversation, I heard only when my best coworker commented: "No, 2 of us are married, also Klara is married."

My first neighbor at the table was utterly surprised and asked me:  "You? You are married? I thought you were just living with a man." 

I calmly replied that yes, I have been married for 11 years. 

But inside I was deeply hurt. I am married with the love of my life. But to the outside world it seems that if we don't have children,  our relationship is like nothing.  

I am better today. It is a sunny weekend, I was outside a lot. And I even went for one hour of swimming yesterday.  Being active & fresh air do help to lift my spirit.

Wishing you all a beautiful Sunday!

Lovely Christmas Package

It is lovely to get home from a long working week and find just a perfect Christmas gift. 
Me & my DH are looking forward to our first moring coffee tomorrow. 
And beautiful mouse pad is being used already.
Dear P&A: thank you!!!!

Happy 3rd Birthday to my Blog

My blog is celebrating third birthday today. This was my first post:
http://thenext15000days.blogspot.com/2011/12/living-new-happy-life-after.html

Writing blog and giving all the hard & ugly infertility feelings out there really helped me.
I already got a beautiful blog-birthday gift from a new bloggie friend. I got an email from her:
"...I also wanted to take this opportunity to thank you from the bottom of my heart for your blog.  I appreciate your courage, candor, and willingness to share your journey.  I'm sure it's therapeutic for you to write, but it's also so meaningful to me because reading the stories of others who have gone through/are going through the same things as me.  It helps me to not feel quite so lonely if that makes sense."

Yes,  it makes sense. And thank you for your email, it meant world to me.

Now I am off, for whole day Christmas event at work, I will be back in the evening to read all the best wishes either here or at: klara.soncek (at) gmail.com

:)

Invisible

A pen friend of mine (childless, not by choice)  told me that she feels invisible a lot of the time. This word has been sticking in my mind for the whole weekend, since it so perfectly describes how I feel, very often.

I went for a walk&talk date with my best friend. Nowadays we do this only once every two weeks for one hour, since she is so busy with her two kids.

I really love her. But it was kind of  hard to hear about all of her plans for the summer holidays.  She would prefer to go for a week to the seaside to destination X with family A and her husband prefers destination Y and family B. And the kids prefer the kids of the family A, but prefer destination Y.

I felt so invisible.

Nobody makes any summer plans with me and my DH. We are just always alone.

And that's why our American holidays were so special for us, we did have the best travelling buddies possible. Here is one lovely photo, as a memory of the perfect holidays.

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The work New Years Party was actually great. I didn't drive so this year I could drink few cocktails. They helped :)
And the music was loud, so even the most annoying mommy-coworkers could not share their kids story.

So, it was pefect. We were dancing and drinking and laughing over some silly jokes.
This party gave me the hope that I still can function well. And that everything will be OK one day.

Each family gets one card

I briefly visited my brother's family. 

My oldest niece (7) told me that in the afternoon she was planning to do New Year cards.   Here is our conversation:

Me: "So will I get any card?"
Niece: "Of course."
Me: "Will my husband also get any card?"
Niece: "Of course. You will get one card together. Each family gets one card." 

How lovely she is! And how smart! For her, we are a family.  

(I know I shouldn't have favourites, but she is my favourite child. I really think she got a kind heart from me).

Viele liebe Grüsse aus Graz

My DH had to go for work for one day to Graz, Austria. I took one day off work so I could go with him. He was working and I spent whole day walking around the city. Exploring it. Drinking hot chocolate. Eating waffles with apple sauce and cinnamon. It was lovely.

Pictures say more than hundreds words, so here they are: