Goodbye for five weeks

I am already counting the days until our holidays, so it is time to say goodbye to my blog for five weeks.

Does anybody know a good bed&breakfast between Morro Bay and Mendocino (part of our holidays is: renting a car and driving for 5 days along the Pacific)? Suggestions welcome at: klara.soncek (at) gmail.com 

We are flying to the USA exactly 11 years since the first time, since our honeymoon. It is amazing to think what a long path did we walk in the last 11 years. 

From newlyweds who found it a great idea to get pregnant on the honeymoon (we were joking that we will bring home an American baby). To having our hearts and souls  broken million times because of the dreams that never came true. To accepting our childless life. And - finally - to a couple who is happy to have each other and ready  for all the new adventures that life will bring.    

Dear P&A: can't wait to meet you both!! This is one of the silver linings of infertility.  11 years ago I didn't even think that one day we will have friends in the USA.

That's why I love life. It is beautiful and full of surprises. 

Quiet

I am reading Susan Cain's book Quiet. For a non-native it is quite difficult book to read, but it is worth to make an effort. I learned a lot about me.

Here is description of me:
"Introverts, in contrast, may have strong social skills and enjoy parties and business meetings, but after a while wish they were home in their pajamas. They prefer to devote their social energies to close friends, colleagues, and family. They listen more than they talk, think before they speak, and often feel as if they express themselves better in writing than in conversation. They tend to dislike conflict. Many have a horror of small talk, but enjoy deep discussions."

Before reading this book I thought that being childless is harder for introverts. But I guess it is not. Since I have always had a horror of small talk, this is not really something new. It just sucks a bit more - since a lot of small talk between colleagues / new people / etc is connected with kids. 

On the other hand - extroverts are brilliant at small talk. So it must be harder for them - suddenly, with infertility, they can not master small talks that easily as before.

But, it doesn't really matter. Infertility sucks for all of us. I guess it is time to turn off the computer, and go on my bike, for a short and beautiful autumn cycling.

A rainbow

My cousin sent me an SMS at midnight, but I got it early in the morning. It says:
"My daughter has been drawing beautiful rainbows for the past few days. She says you taught her how to do it."

Yes, I taught her on Sunday, I had both princesses (aged 5 and 6) just for myself for few hours. 

I love to be a small part in the lives of both little girls.

But how would I love to be a big part in the life of my own daughter!

I love time with both girls. But on the other hand it hurts seeing, what my life could be and it will never be. 

Woman who decided to stop all infertility treatments

I also like the description of my blog on this site:
http://www.creatingafamily.org/infertility/blogs.html 

It is described as: Woman who decided to stop all infertility treatments

Exactly!  What a relief it is - not having to take another injection of hormones - ever again.

Self and Soul

It is lovely to win an unexpected gift
http://lifewithoutbaby.com/2014/09/05/spiritual-legacy-childlessness/

I am looking forward to reading the book!
Thank you, Lorraine & Lisa.

Une vie sans enfant est possible

I would like to thank Marie-Ève for adding my blog to her  blog roll:

 http://amourpatient.blogspot.fr/p/les-blogs-lies-linfertilite-et.html

in the section with a really cool name: 

Elles ont vécu l'infertilité et nous prouvent qu'une vie sans enfant, tout en étant accomplie et bien dans sa peau, est possible

translation:

They who have experienced infertility and have proven that an accomplished and a good life without children is possible.

(I love French, I wish I had spoken it better).