Monday, August 29, 2016

Today's delicious photo

I cycled many hours today to earn this delicious ice-cream.
It was worth it :)

Kilometers cycled so far this year: 650.
I hope to reach 1000 till the end of October.

Monday, August 22, 2016

Lessons learnt from beloved Wolf

 Beloved Wolf, aged 5 years

I spent Saturday working in my vegetable garden with my mom, Wolfie was there with us, guarding us. During our talk, my mom commented that I spend way too much time with my dog. That there is so much work when owning a dog, that some parents don't spend as much active time with their children as I do with my dog. She added that I spent so much time with my Wolf and what do I have now that he is dead? By her opinion nothing. 

I wasn't offended. I know that nobody who never owned a pet can can understand the joy that a dog can bring you. So I just replied that I can not imagine my time better spent then with Wolf. 

Still, my mom's comment didn't leave my mind for many days. 

I didn't tell her this, but there is a priceless lesson that I learnt from beloved Wolf. No matter how long you live, the life is always too short. So you just have to live each day to the fullest, the best way you can. And hang out with ones you love. 

Beloved Wolfie, aged 1 year and a half

BTW:  I got back mammography results. They are OK. I am very relieved.

Monday, August 8, 2016

A walk in the woods

A photo from yesterday's hike with DH and beloved Wolfie. It was a lovely hike!

Sunday, August 7, 2016

A mammography screening

I have a mammography screening in two days and since I haven't had my period for the last two months, I wanted to be sure that I am not pregnant. So I did the test.

Not that I wish to have a child that late in life.

But still, it is depressing to see negative test. Since it brings back so many sad memories from the past. 

The first mammography screening was very hurtful. I hope it will be better this time.

Friday, August 5, 2016

Two curious little girls

I have just returned from beautiful holidays at the seaside with my cousin and her two kids aged 7 and 4. It was lovely to do many fun things with the kids, sometimes were just the tree of us. But at the same time, it was also a bit sad, experiencing something so beautiful and knowing, it will never be a part of my life except few days per year.

One day, the seven-year-old niece was in my bedroom and I was reading a story. She asked me, out of the blue: "You never had any children?" 
I replied that never.
She asked me "How come?" 
What can you answer to a kid? I replied that God didn't give any children to us. 
She said (=her mom recently explained her rough version of how babies come to world): "So an egg and a sperm didn't meet?". 
I replied "No". 
Her eyes sparkled since she found the solution "I know. Your husband and you aren't really married. That's why an egg and a sperm didn't meet." 
I laughed, it was so funny. I explained that we have been married, for 13 years.
She said: "That's a long time!"
I agreed.
She concluded: "But then if you are married, it is really strange that an egg and a sperm didn't meet."
I agreed that it was strange indeed. 

Few days later I had a similair discussion with a 9-year-old girl. She is my cousin's friend's child and since one of her parents doesn't like to swim and the other was busy minding younger children, she had nobody to swim with. She noticed that I am swimming all the time and she asked me if she may join me. I would never say no to a child, especially when such a kind request is very seldom.  The girl just loved swimming with me and so did I.
After a while she asked: "Klara, do you have any children?" 
I replied "No."
She said: "But why you don't have children? You didn't want to have children?". 
I didn't want to have this conversation. But I couldn't reply nothing.
I said: "Well, God didn't give me any children".
She thought for a second and then said: "So, you wished to have children and you couldn't?"
I agreed.
She concluded: "It is a pity!"
I agreed that it was a pity indeed.

The two conversations didn't make me sad. 
I felt rich, having company of two lovely girls for few days. 
And I feel that I made the girls' lives richer. Just by talking to them, not ignoring their questions and being kind to them.