It is lovely Saturday morning. I am home alone, so I have time to enjoy some time on Internet.
I just came across a beautiful new blog: http://beyondthedreamofmotherhood.blogspot.com/2013/08/beyond-dream-of-motherhood.html
It brought memories back, how difficult it was for me to end IVF treatments and to accept fact that I will never be a mother. The memories are sad. But remembering, it does not make me sad any more. It just is the part of my past.
I am a 40-something European woman doing what I once thought wasn't possible: finding happiness after infertility. While it's been a long, difficult and emotional journey (10 unsuccessful IVF treatments), each day I take another step down the path toward a fulfilling new life. This is my story of reinvention. I will be happy to hear from you: klara.soncek (@ ) gmail.com
Saturday, August 31, 2013
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Beautiful Czech Republic
We just returned from the holidays. Here are some photos:
OLOMOUC
LITOMYŠL
PARDUBICE
KUTNA HORA
ČEŠKE BUDEJOVICE
ČEŠKY KRUMLOY
I was really looking forward to our holidays but on the other hand I was also a bit scared. Why?
The only holiday so far that we had in Czech Republic was exactly 2 years ago, when we went to clinic in Brno for an egg donation. We used the days between egg retrieval and embryo transfer for the holiday.
I was afraid that travelling around will bring back sad memories. Well, the memories did come back. But not in a bad way. It is just part of my healing process.
I remember that last time I was filled with different hormones.. It was lovely to travel this time, 100 % drug free.
I remember that last time, whenever we visited any church, I prayed for Eliška & František (nick names for our so much wanted children). This time I prayed for health, love and peace in my heart.
I remember that last time I loved observing cute children. And thinking if our half-adopted child would look like them. This time cute Czech children were just cute children, nothing more.
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We had lovely time together, discovering a beautiful country.
If you are interested to learn more, here is the official tourism web site:
Friday, August 23, 2013
Gifts of infertility
Mali's today post warmed my heart:
http://nokiddinginnz.blogspot.com/2013/08/gifts-of-infertility.html#comment-form
I couldn't agree more!
And - I am looking forward to having lunch one day in New Zealand with Mali and our two DHs.
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I have to start packing now... my DH & me will go for a holiday tomorrow early in the morning. Direction: North / North-east.
I am really looking forward to our holidays.
Photos will follow when we are back.
http://nokiddinginnz.blogspot.com/2013/08/gifts-of-infertility.html#comment-form
I couldn't agree more!
And - I am looking forward to having lunch one day in New Zealand with Mali and our two DHs.
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I have to start packing now... my DH & me will go for a holiday tomorrow early in the morning. Direction: North / North-east.
I am really looking forward to our holidays.
Photos will follow when we are back.
Sunday, August 18, 2013
Turning 40
I had my 40th birthday few days ago.
As a childless woman I was afraid of turning 40. But it was not hard. I just kept thinking about my dear friend Maria who died when 37. She would give anything to be 40 (and so would her husband).
As I have already written - my only mission right now is to get the best of my next 40 years. If I am lucky, 40 happy years are waiting for me.
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I had a lovely day yesterday. I went swimming in the lake with my best friend. It was the first whole day together that we had in the last 8 years. How great it is that her kids are getting more independant every day!
So I really feel that I am getting my old happy life back. Bit by bit.
As a childless woman I was afraid of turning 40. But it was not hard. I just kept thinking about my dear friend Maria who died when 37. She would give anything to be 40 (and so would her husband).
As I have already written - my only mission right now is to get the best of my next 40 years. If I am lucky, 40 happy years are waiting for me.
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I had a lovely day yesterday. I went swimming in the lake with my best friend. It was the first whole day together that we had in the last 8 years. How great it is that her kids are getting more independant every day!
So I really feel that I am getting my old happy life back. Bit by bit.
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Would You Tell Someone You Were Infertile?
I loved Pamela's post:
http://open.salon.com/blog/pamela_jeanne/2013/08/13/would_you_tell_someone_you_were_infertile
It made me think.
The majority of people talk about their infertility after they have had a baby. So it really gives false impression - that all problems can be solved with medical assistance.
It is not true. I can tell. I have had 10 IVFs. I don't have any child.
(I am not sad any more. It just is what it is. My mission now: to get the best out of my next 40 years).
http://open.salon.com/blog/pamela_jeanne/2013/08/13/would_you_tell_someone_you_were_infertile
It made me think.
The majority of people talk about their infertility after they have had a baby. So it really gives false impression - that all problems can be solved with medical assistance.
It is not true. I can tell. I have had 10 IVFs. I don't have any child.
(I am not sad any more. It just is what it is. My mission now: to get the best out of my next 40 years).
Sunday, August 4, 2013
Enjoying in a beautiful summer
No time to write.
I am too busy with enjoying beautiful hot summer, I go swimming almost every day.
Today I read on the beach of the lake this book:

Beautiful novel! It made me think - being a mother is not a guarantee for happiness.
Susanna Tamaro is one of the best Italian novelist. The first of her novels that I read years ago was this one:

I loved it! I have to reread it one day.
Enjoy your summer! I will be back when the temperatures fall under 30 C (now we are having every day 37 C (=99 F).
I am too busy with enjoying beautiful hot summer, I go swimming almost every day.
Today I read on the beach of the lake this book:
Beautiful novel! It made me think - being a mother is not a guarantee for happiness.
Susanna Tamaro is one of the best Italian novelist. The first of her novels that I read years ago was this one:
I loved it! I have to reread it one day.
Enjoy your summer! I will be back when the temperatures fall under 30 C (now we are having every day 37 C (=99 F).
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