My vegetables

I am so proud, I am really getting good at growing my organic vegetables. 
The eggplant, tomatoes, basil and zucchinis: were already part of our dinner. Delicious!

Meet my Wolfie

Photo of my Wolfie was taken on Sunday walk through the forest. He is only 5 months old, so he gets tired very quickly.

He is a very nice puppy. The cutest thing - he has chosen me as his favourite person from his pack. 

Wolfie isn't lucky with health - he has some terrible skin allergies (his belly and legs are in bad rashes). Summary of our 3 months together: 12 visits at the vet, 3x 10 days of antibiotics, 1 x steroids, now daily antihistamines.

We hope it is only food allergy, they are the easiest to handle.

Vet said that the tests for allergy are reliable only when dogs are at 8-12 months old... so we can not test him until now.

We are now buying one of the most expensive foods available:
http://www.petcurean.com/for-dogs/now-fresh/grain-free-puppy 

(only Canadian food is good enough for Mr. Wolfie, he refused English, German and Swiss dog food :)

He is already a bit better. But it was so sad few weeks ago, he had so many side effects from antibiotics that he looked so ill as our previous dog, few months before passing away.

I love Wolfie. But I am really sure that he is the last dog of my life. Too many things can go wrong, too many worries... 

Accept childless life

I have just noticed that somebody new searched for "Accept childless life" and found my blog.
It makes me wonder, what did she (or he) think of the read posts?

Outsider

My favourite cousin invited me to the seaside, to spend some days with her and her two kids in camping, in a mobile home that she rented for the whole summer. 

It was lovely to get some extra days of sea & lots of swimming.  

It was nice to see her and the kids (aged 3 and 6). But at the same time it was just bitter-sweet. To see the life I could have and will never have. I felt just an outsider, being in a camping which is very family oriented which means sharing beach with 1000 toddlers. I tried very hard to do some reading on the beach, but I just couldn't .... too much screaming. 

I was looking a lot to spending some quality time with my cousin (who felt like my sister for almost all life before infertility). I know my cousin still loves me. But she was way more interested in talking with all new mommy-summer-friends that she needs in order to provide her children socialization. 

I understand it, but it doesn't mean I was not hurt.

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There were some so cute moments that I just want to lock them in my memory and have forever. Like 3-year-old boy, coming in his cute pyjamas every night into my bed, asking if I could read his favourite book. I love this story too. I guess it is the best kids book for little kids that I know.
But, as always, it was bitter sweet. Knowing that I will never be able to rad this book to my kid.