Planning for the future

I have  been very busy lately.  Gathering offers for the house, deciding, making financial projections, doing the strategies for dealing the price is stressful. But overall it is great. It feels good - to take the destiny in our own hands and plan for our future.

Somehow I am grateful that we didn't have enough money to build the house when we got married. We have learnt so much from then. For example: a) that we don't need much space, a small house will do just perfectly for the two of us   b)  house will  already be equipped with a  bedroom and a bathroom for guests in the ground floor. We hope that this will serve this purpose for many decades to come . But this is also a back plan for an old age - if one of us won't be able to walk the stairs any more, we will simply move to the bedroom downstairs. So when a young sales person tried to persuade us that it is much better idea to have downstairs just a huge living room, my husband and I looked at each other and smiled. It felt good, taking destiny in our hands. We really don't want to be dependent on anybody when old.  

Have you read Mali's post from the beginning of March? I just loved it!
http://nokiddinginnz.blogspot.si/2017/03/being-alone-or-not-in-our-old-age.html


... And it feels good knowing, with whom I want to spend the rest of my life.

Wonderful news

I have some wonderful news. We managed to arrange some unsolved issues with the land that we bought many years ago. So now we are in the process of choosing the right prefabricated house for the two of us. 

If everything goes well (please, do keep your fingers crossed) we will move to our new home by Christmas 2018.

We are both very happy and very excited! 

What I realized last week

Advice for future bloggers (who blog about life after infertility): never tell your best girl friend about your blog. Since the people you love the most, can hurt you the most. I know that not intentionally, but still..

We have our walk&talk date agreed for weekend, but then very last minute she cancelled me since she had other plans (=some friends with kids had a party).

It hurts, being dumped so easily as soon as the better offer arrives.

And you see - all things that I do with my friends, are simple. Like walk & talk dates. Or just long talks over a coffee. I never organize any exciting parties (=infertility robbed me of lot of things; in reality I don't have many people left).  So I can not compete with grand plans that other people are offering.

What I realized this week is this: I always thought that when my friends' children will grow up, I will get my friends back.  But then I realized - the mothers who focus so much on their children, will also focus that much on their grandchildren. Which basically means I could get my friends truly back when their kids are 20, but only for about 7 years, until the time that the first grandchildren will start to arrive.

I'd better start to enjoy my alone time. Luckily with this handsome guy I am never alone (photo taken on Saturday, on our 4-hour-walk):

PS:  My husband is Wolfie's master. But I am Wolfie's favourite person in the entire world.

Last week photos

 

 

I am fortunate that I can escape being closed in the office from time to time. I am sharing some last week's photos with you. 

I even went jogging along the seaside for the very first time this year. I couldn't manage more then 5 minutes, but felt great anyway. 

News

My husband's results are finally back.
Bad news: cancer confirmed. Basal cell carcinoma.
Good news: all carcinoma tissue was removed, so no additional treatment is needed. I am very thankful for that.

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When driving on a highway from Italy back home, 140 km/hour, a truck partially blocked me. I was millimeters away from having a horrible crash. Luckily it ended well. But I was shaking for the rest of the day after that. 

Toujours avec nous

What is the cutest thing that any child ever told you?

My husband and I went to the airport, just to say goodbye to our new friends. They were checking the luggage so we waited aside. The little 3-year-old princess came to me, took my hand and brought me in the line, to wait together with them. We all laughed, it was so extra cute.  Then my friend asked her daughter: "So, is Klara coming with us?"   And the little one replied: "toujours avec nous." (which means: always with us).

My heart just melted.

Most of the time I am in peace with my childlessness. But in moments like that I really regret that we don't have such a perfect little girl of our own.

Meeting a beautiful little princess and her parents

Infertility robbed me of many things. But there is one priceless gift that I got. Through my blog I am able to connect with kind souls literally all around the world. 

Readers who read my blog from the start will remember Kaymet from this post:
http://thenext15000days.blogspot.si/2014/04/beautiful-photos-from-normandy.html

It was very lovely to meet Kaymet also in person this week, for the very first time.  And it was lovely to spend the evening in our flat with her family and my husband.

I knew in advance that we will get along well.

But what I didn't know is that I will just love their 3-year-old daughter.  And she liked me a lot as well! My favourite image of the little one will always be yesterday's memory, when I came to say goodbye to their hotel. When the little one noticed me, she started running with open arms towards me and fell into my arms. Just beautiful!

And I will be for her the woman who is master of finding her favourite song, Frozen, in many different languages, including mine.

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Yesterday early morning I re-read the very first email that Kaymet sent to me almost 4 years ago:
"...I thought, what the heck, life is short, let's be a bit crazy sometimes and write an email just based on a strange feeling that I'm supposed to write it.   :-)))  And you never know, Europe is not very big - maybe someday we'll meet and laugh about this. " 

Yes we did laugh about this, it is so wonderful that Kaymet did send me the first email and that we did meet.

On weeks like this I feel blessed despite being childless.