I love Sundays

I love Sundays. Because I always spend them with DH and our beloved Wolf.   We spent today's Sunday at Lake Bohinj, a beautiful alpine lake on the north-west part of our country. I am attaching the photo, taken today. We walked around the lake (13 kilometers).

It is always so great to spend whole day outside, on fresh alpine air (by the way: in Europe only Finland has more forest as my country).

At the end of the day the weather became really windy. And suddenly all families with  kids disappeared (=went home). And only we, adults, majority with dogs, remained. Perfect world :)

It's a boy!

I visited few days old nephew in the morning. Since my infertility journey this was the first time that I was actually looking forward to meeting the baby for the first time. I held him for couple of minutes - he was so tiny and warm and beautiful! I played with his older sister. When leaving them I thought - how great, I am healed!

But couple of minutes ago I received the photos from my sister (with me & nephew). It was sad to see the photos - my eyes look so sad! Eyes are reflection of the soul. I thought I was OK, but I am obviously not. I guess I will never be OK.

Home, sweet home

How nice it is to be back home! To breath fresh air. To drink tap water. Not to worry about passports, credit cards, money... To take our beloved Wolf for a long walk.

We had a nice holiday. It was great to have my DH for almost three weeks just for myself.

We loved Singapore. Originally we  planned to spend there 2 days, but just couldn't leave the great city, so we stayed there 4 days. But to be completely honest, we did not like Malaysia that much. It was OK, but perhaps we expected too much. 

The part of Malaysia that we really liked, were Cameron Highlands. We visited tea plantations, they were beautiful.  We drank the best tea ever - Boh tea.

I was really looking forward to Perhentian islands, but we left them after one night. The only room we were able to book was full of insects (mosquitoes, millipedes and even one cockroach). We tried to find another accommodation, but everything was booked out. So I enjoyed crystal clear sea only for one afternoon and one morning - but this was still better as no sea at all. South China Sea is so warm - it has approximately 27 C. So it is actually too warm to feel fresher after swimming. 

It was really great feeling, for 3 weeks not to feel as an infertile couple. We were couple, enjoying life. Enjoying museums, new food, new experiences.

We saw so many young Muslim mothers in Malaysia. Majority of women my age are already grand mothers in Malaysia. And there are so many big families. But seeing all those young women with their extra sweet babies did not make me sad. To be frank, I wouldn't like to have three children by the age of 24. When I was 24, I was just finishing university, I was in the middle of long and bad relationship. And it lasted for another few years to find my Mr. Right.

On the photo above is the best hotel I have ever seen - Marina Bay Sands, in Singapore. It is (unfortunately) way above our budget, so we just visited observation deck on the 56th floor. The view from there is magnificent! 

So, no more holidays for me for this year. I still have 10 days off work and I still have to make plan how to make the most of them.

I am looking forward to finding some time next week to read all the new posts on your blogs... to see what I missed in the last three weeks.

Mali & The real success stories

dear Mali,
I just read your latest post:
http://nokiddinginnz.blogspot.com/2012/04/real-success-stories.html

and I loved it!!!  I couldn't agree more with you.

hugs,

Klara

Baby girl in Melbourne

I have just seen news on FB: a friend of mine just had a baby girl. I am really happy for her & sad for me. As always, when a new baby is born.

I met my Aussie friend 11 years ago, when I was working for one month in Germany. We instantly got along and only few weeks later she visited me in Slovenia. After that we met for few times, we always had a great time together.

Also their story was not an easy one.. the baby girl is a miracle baby from their 4th IVF attempt.

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One of the nicest invites that I ever got was from this Aussie friend, in autumn, after failed 10th IVF. She invited me & DH to live with them for a month or few months.... if we decided to try luck in the best infertility clinic in Melbourne. Isn't that sweet? I will be always grateful for this invitation.

But I am done with hoping & trying & infertility drugs & IVFs. When we go to Australia (in the next few years), it will be only for holidays.

My sister

I had a nice long Easter weekend despite all the rain (my dog enjoys walks in all kinds of weather). And yesterday I had a visit: my sister and her 2-year-old daughter came for a visit. It was lovely to see them: I missed them both (her daughter is one of the sweetest children I have ever seen).

Here is the news. My sister is highly pregnant, she will have a baby in few weeks. And for the first time since our infertility journey began, I am actually looking forward to a new baby! It really seems that I am on a road to recovery.

To be frank - I am looking forward to the baby. But I still want to avoid all the exciment in the family, all the celebrations etc... so... Asia, here I come :) 
(baby will be born during our holidays)

Injections? No, thank you.

I am glad that we cancelled IVF with egg donation that was already booked for end of April. If we wouldn't cancel it, I would be already on injections, suffering all kind of side effects.

I had 9 normal IVFs and 1 with egg donation and I can tell you that the one with egg donation was the hardest.

Anyway, I am happy that I will be able to enjoy drugfree Spring & Summer.

And I am happy never ever in my life to take any infertility drugs again.