I wasn't in the mood for the last few days to write anything related to dealing with life after infertility. I am neither bitter nor sad because of my infertility. It is what it is.
I am just terribly sad because of my beloved Wolf. I miss him terribly. Today it is exactly one year since vet told us his diagnosis.
I went to the garden (approx five minutes of walking away) to pick up delicious field salad yesterday. Literally whenever I went to the garden the Wolf went with me. It was sad to walk the way alone.
My beloved Wolf taught me that life can be so short. That it is precious. That I have to live each day to the fullest. To enjoy.
Here is the plan for today: reading a good book / baking lasagna / long walk with DH after lunch / good movie with DH in the evening.
I can have my oldest niece (6 years) for myself only once a year. My brother and his wife are not happy if I ask to have her, so I just don't (except for the Santa Claus carnival).
I was bitter about it, now I am not any more.
And that's why I appreciate my dear cousin even more - she lets me have her 4-year-old daughter whenever I want. Last Saturday I spent some lovely hours with the little one visiting my best friend and her two kids. The visit reminded me how lovely my weekends would be if I had kids. Full of joy, laughter and play.
I wasn't bitter about it either. It is what it is.
I appreciated lovely last Saturday.
And I also appreciate today. I just returned from a long walk in the nature.
Photo from today's walk with my DH.
We both love long walks through the forest.
New Year's Resolution: Try to spend less time on blogs. Try to swim at least once a week.
I went swimming after work, to the Olympic swimming pool nearby (I haven't been there for more then a decade). I swam for an hour. I feel great now.
I had lovely holidays. But in a way I am glad they are over. I don't like the pressure that Christmas - New Year holidays is supposed to be the happiest time - everybody checking and asking what special things did I do over holidays.
My DH gave me a beautiful Cannon EOS camera as a new year gift- with instructions that I have to learn how to use it before September - so that I will be able to take lots of wonderful photos on our trip to the USA.
It is a bit complicated, so I am attaching a photo taken by the old camera. A motive: my youngest niece (sitting in my lap), admiring her new year's gift.
An opportunity for all of you - to learn the first word in my language :)
Wishing you all a beautiful weekend.
Klara
