Goodbye for now

As always, I lack time in the summer. So I will say goodbye and will be back with the first rainy days at the end of the summer.   I am attaching some photos from Croatian seaside, it was lovely to swim for couple of days. 

I am busy growing my vegetables:

My favourite sweet is terragon potica, here I backed half of potica terragon, half with blueberries:

The traditional potica is with walnuts, but I like to be creative.


I have spent many beautiful walks with husband and Wolfie. This Sunday we were lucky to pick up these:

Spagetti with porcinis were delicious, so was the jam that I cooked.

A new highlight of this summer: I love to swim and  my nieces and a nephew love to swim, but their parents not so much. I love taking them to huge open swimming pool for a swim. I love being their aunt.

There were also some moments in July that I felt my childnessness again.

I was invited to an uncle's barbecue and nobody bother to tell me that also a distant relative was invited with her newborn, aged 4 weeks. It was aweful, all conversation involved talking about the baby, memories of giving childbirth, breastfeeding etc. Did I have to contribute anything to the conversation?   Social gatherings like that remind me that I don't fit and that I never will.

I spent some lovely moments with our distant family from Australia. I loved talking to them. We were talking about something and I know that I was thinking how easily I bond with some people. But then there was a comment (said by couple 15 years old then me, with 3 grown up children): "Yes, the wheels of life are turning." (the remaining of the sentence had to do something about their children and grandchildren).  I don't have children, so what are my wheels of life?


 
 

 This is all for now... enjoy the summer! (or if you are from the opposite part of the world, enjoy the winter ;)

Alpe Adria Cycling Trail

I just returned from a great cycling tour with my husband. We went cycling on Alpe Adria Cycling Trail, from south of Austria to Salzburg: https://www.alpe-adria-radweg.com/en/ 

We cycled 180 kilometers in 3 days. It isn't a lot of kilometers, but some of them were quite steep.

I am attaching some photos. 

The next cycling trip will be at the end of summer, the southern part of the cycling trail: to Italian seaside.

Another beautiful day

Photos are from my top favourite part of my country: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lake_Bohinj 

It was just a perfect day:
- walking around the lake (13 kilometers)
- swimming in cold crystal clear water

Wolfie enjoyed it as well :)

A lovely cycling day

I spent a lovely day cycling with DH.
We were here: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Logar_Valley_(Slovenia)

A frog

I love summers. There is so much to do outside that I lack time for thinking about the things that I miss and will miss in my life. Currently I don't miss anything, perhaps just some free time...

The photo was taken by my husband. This is one of the things I love about him: he loves wildlife and he would never hurt an animal, no matter how small it is.

I like the colour of the frog and how it is looking back.

A little house for the two of us

I couldn't be happier.
Me and my husband have just signed a contract with a producer of prefabricated houses for our little house.
We have been very busy with meetings, visits, analyzing, deciding... for the last few months.
And we both decided at the end for the same producer, so it was an easy decision at the end.
If everything goes well, we will move to our new home before Christmas 2018. 
First 5 % of the house are already paid. Only another 95 % remain to be paid :)

I am looking forward to many things. But most of all I look forward having a little garden that belongs to us. Having a private parking space. And - having a guest room for friends and family.

After experiencing failure after failure for the whole decade it is so refreshing to have something to really look forward to! 

Having lots of money and no children

I spent a whole day with my mom, working on my vegetables' garden. It was nice, I am still learning so much from her. We had a lot of time to talk and this is the story that my mom told me.

My mom recently talked to my niece (aged 9) and the niece asked her how come that in her best friend's family there are 4 children and in her family there are only 2.
My mom replied that each person should have as many children as one can afford.
My niece said: "But Klara has a lot of money* and she doesn't have any children!"
My mom told her: "Everybody decides for him/herself. And you should never ask this Klara unless you want her to be sad."

I didn't comment anything.

You see, I never talked to my mom about my infertily.
When can you start talking about it? After it doesn't work out for few months? After first few medical examinations? Before 1st IVF? After 10th failed IVF?

And now my beloved niece has already knowledge how you deal with infertility (and other unpleasant issues) in family: you don't talk about. You pretend that nothing happened.

This makes me sad.



* A note: I don't have a lot of money. But to a child an aunt that can easily pay for the icecream and cakes for 5 children equals being rich :)