Sometimes I hear a sentence that I just love.
I was attending Zoom German language course yesterday and we were learning about modal verbs. Someone said a sentence: "Ich will mein Leben leben". = "I want to live my life." Exactly, I couldn't agree more!
I recently lost my job due to pandemic (hopefully it is only temporary) so I have plenty of time. I don't like the circumstances that brought to it, but I love having the time anyway.
I have time for learning languages, for reading, for going on long walks...
If I see something beautiful on my walks, I have time to stop and admire. Like these two trees that are growing together - like two lovers, hugging and protecting each other. I think they are just wonderful. (I showed them to my husband and told him they are just like us. He smiled.)
The covid19 situation in my country is pretty terrible - mainly because many people are ignoring safety recommendations.
To protect elderly people in nursing homes the visits there are not allowed. I heard many times the comment from the nursing homes, how elderly people are heartbroken. Since the only thing they look forward in life are visits of their children and grandchildren. Now that the pandemic has taken this away from them, they have no reason to live.
I feel sorry for them, of course. It is sad that they are sad.
But this made me realize that living involuntary childless made me stronger - I had to learn how to find happiness within me.