Ich will mein Leben leben

 

Sometimes I hear a sentence that I just love.

I was attending Zoom German language course yesterday and we were learning about modal verbs. Someone said a sentence: "Ich will mein Leben leben". = "I want to live my life." Exactly, I couldn't agree more! 

I recently lost my job due to pandemic (hopefully it is only temporary) so I have plenty of time. I don't like the circumstances that brought to it, but I love having the time anyway.

I have time for learning languages, for reading, for going on long walks...

If I see something beautiful on my walks, I have time to stop and admire. Like these two trees that are growing together - like two lovers, hugging and protecting each other. I think they are just wonderful. (I showed them to my husband and told him they are just like us. He smiled.)

The covid19 situation in my country is pretty terrible - mainly because many people are ignoring safety recommendations. 

To protect elderly people in nursing homes the visits there are not allowed. I heard many times the comment from the nursing homes, how elderly people are heartbroken. Since the only thing they look forward in life are visits of their children and grandchildren. Now that the pandemic has taken this away from them, they have no reason to live.

I feel sorry for them, of course. It is sad that they are sad.

But this made me realize that living involuntary childless made me stronger - I had to learn how to find happiness within me.

A movie: Pupille / In safe hands

 

I have been learning French on the really good online course for the last seven months,  it is very good. As an addition to the language course I try to see at least one French movie per week. 

I watched the movie Pupille / In safe hands  ...  I loved it. I have never seen a story about an adoption portrayed so beautifully. 

I loved one sentence from the movie so much. The social worker said: "I don't find kids for hurting parents. I find the best possible parents for kids in difficulties.". 

This movie made me realize... how hurt I was when we stopped with all the infertility treatments. And how many years had to pass before I found peace in my heart again.  And when I found that peace, I am way too old to adopt (not that this is in my/our plans now). 

I recommend the movie.

Pilates - advice needed

Does any of you regularly practice pilates with the help of an online course? I know that many of them are available but since I know literally nothing about pilates, I would like to ask for your help. Do you recommend any? Links are welcome (either as comment or directly to my inbox: klara.soncek (at) gmail.com

I plan to use long pandemic months to get fit also with the help of pilates :)

It is what it is

There is one question that has quite often crossed my mind for the last few years. Am I OK with being childless? There are many days that I am and there are also days that I am not. 

 Today - when watching an inspiring short video on BBC by Frank Gardner, BBC's correspondent -  I realized that thinking about it doesn't make sense really.

 Frank Gardner was asked if he was OK being disabled (he was shot by al-Qaeda in Saudi Arabia). His reply was just perfect: "It is pointless not being OK with it because there's nothing I can do about it. So frankly it makes bugger all difference whether I'm OK with it or not because it is what it is." 

Exactly. It is what it is. And we have to make the most out of life that we have.