Monday, May 25, 2015

Which wolf will win?



An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. "A fight is going on inside me," he said to the boy.
"It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil - he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego." He continued, "The other is good - he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you - and inside every other person, too."
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, "Which wolf will win?"
The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

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I got this story from a dear bloggie friend this morning.
The story is precious.
But even more precious is her email comment:
"Somehow this made me think of you (although I am usually not a big fan of so-called cherokee probably made-up wisdom), because you have been really good about feeding good wolves of all kind."

My dear bloggie friend - thank you - you made my day. 

How lovely. Now also you have children.

I was a baby sitter on Sunday morning for almost two hours. I took for a walk my cousin's  3-year-old son. It was lovely. I took him to a beautiful bridge that he had never seen before.  

When walking across town center, I met my schoolfriend from Italian classes. We visited the same classes for few years, almost a decade ago. I hadn't met her for some years. 

When we met (she was with her husband and three kids) she said: "How lovely. Now also you have children." 
(btw: it is just silly to assume that if a woman is walking with ONE child, that there are some additional children somewhere else).

I wasn't surprised. I wasn't hurt. I just said: "No, I don't have children. Sometimes I just borrow one or two." 

She looked puzzled. So I just explained who the beautiful little boy was and nothing else.

It is really none of her business, finding  about my blocked tubes / lousy ovaries / broken uterus / broken-but-now-healed heart. 


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I guess I really came to the point in my life where I cherish the things that I do have in my life. 
Regreting the things that I don't really doesn't make sense.

Sunday, May 24, 2015

Yes, I am different and it is OK



I was home alone yesterday evening and I was enjoying my evening a lot - I was watching Eurovision 2015 song contest. I have loved this contest since I was a little girl.

There were lots of songs I liked. My top favourite was Italian - Grande Amore (Great love).

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And I really liked also the Serbian song, especially lyrics, since I found them very meaningful for me:

"Finally I can say:
yes, I am different 
and it's OK. 
Here I am."

Wolfie & Grunzo



Wolfie had a lovely first visit yesterday. My university friend, who now lives in Vienna, visited us with her 9-year-old daughter.  The kid insisted that she wanted to visit Wolfie, so they drove from Vienna mainly just to see Wolfie :)

Wolfie is really great with accepting visits and charming them. And with accepting beautiful gifts. In the photo: Wolfie with his new friend Grunzo (the little girl chose the toy and bought it with her savings and named the toy).   

Thursday, May 21, 2015

Wolfie & my aunt


I am having some tough time with Wolfie. I knew in advance there would be days when I would regret taking him home (it was the same when my beloved Wolf was a puppy). I know it will get better and that he will become a great dog. But now it is just hard dealing with land shark.

(just a note: when you watch Dog Whisperer everything seems so easy. But I am not a dominant type, neither is my DH, so nothing is easy).

But then, there are some moments when Wolfie just melts my heart. See the photo. We visited my mum's childless 83-year-old aunt and Wolfie was just perfect with her. He stayed close to her and enjoyed being cuddled. And the aunt had some wonderful moments. Just priceless.

(this made me think - who will visit me - when I am old and helpless? I hope there will be some kind young soul that will bring me a puppy to cuddle).

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Where is Klara from?


I just love the new promotion video of my country.

Two random facts: 
  • 60 % of my country is covered with forest
  • my country is the only country in the world that in its English version of its name includes the word LOVE

Friday, May 15, 2015

Amiga del alma / soul mate




I didn't even not know this music until yesterday and now I just can't stop listening to it. 

A good colleague of mine lost her best friend yesterday. This song was her best friend's favourite. I did not know her, but I was following her battle with cancer. I am so sorry that she lost.

I am just sad. Sad for my dear colleague. Sad for her friend. And sad for her friend's little pre-school daughter who will have to grow up without her mom.  

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Tragedies like this make me think of my Maria. I miss her. Can't believe she has been gone for already 6 years.  I started re-reading the story about Maria written by her husband. Whenever I come to the sentence:   "... a visitarla  su amiga del alma de Eslovenia, Klara. "

I realize how fortunate I was, that a person as wonderful as Maria considered me "amiga del alma" / a soul mate.

This is the true beauty of living: connecting with others and finding soul mates.