Friday, January 7, 2022

Happy & Healthy New Year!

 


I hope this post finds you well. I wish you, my dear reader, a happy and healthy 2022! 

I recently discovered this beautiful song:

https://youtu.be/j8kS-7wkI7s

If the link doesn't work, do find it on youtube:

Je te souhaite une bonne année (Grégoire)

I love the song and lyrics a lot!  

I wish you all the good wishes from the song! 


The photo: was taken on the first day of the year, on a lovely walk with my husband. We did a short trekking in a beautiful valley Tamar in Julian alps. 


I recently celebrated 10 years of writing my blog. The writing has helped to heal my broken heart and soul. 

Here is the very first post:

http://thenext15000days.blogspot.com/2011/12/living-new-happy-life-after.html


Thank you for all of you who were there for me, supporting me with your kind comments / emails...






Saturday, December 4, 2021

My Christmas Wish

 

I have the same Christmas wish as the last six years.
I would love to get an email from you.
To learn who you are. 
Where you come from.
Why you read my blog.
What my blog means to you.  
Did it help in any way?

I promise I will not publish your emails, nor misuse them in any way.
And I promise I will write back :)

My email: klara.soncek (at) gmail.com


I am looking forward to Christmas :)


PS: I took this photo in the city center of our capital - Ljubljana - few years ago.

Taking time

I listened to a radio interview with a wise man and he said that life is busy and short and we have to take a bit of time for the things we love doing. 

So I followed this advice and took a day off work and went swimming to the swimming pool. I love swimming so much and it felt just great to swim for the first time since the summer. I can feel that my spine is relaxed, I love this feeling! 

And I visited my favourite lake - Lake Bohinj  (it is in the middle of Triglav National Park).



Wednesday, December 1, 2021

Bringing bad luck?

There is a girl in her mid 30s. We used to spend a lot of time together working on job projects. Years ago I briefly told her about my IVF journey. 

Long story short: for the first time after the pandemic we spent some time together again - me, her and 10 other colleagues. 

It turned out that she told every single one of the colleagues about her infertility treatments. They were extra kind to her and also very kind when they talked about her. They all wish her all the best and so do I.

But the interesting thing is that she didn't want to discuss infertility with me. And I was actually the only person in the group who has experiences with infertility.

But I don't blame her. I know. 

At first I thought I was like a bad luck to her. Or a bad omen.

But no. She is very early into her infertility journey. She isn't ready to hear that there are people who went through ALL possible infertility treatments and it didn't help. 

I like her.

I really wish her all the best. And I wish she never has to find out about the stories like mine or yours.  

But if she needs to find about our stories one day... all she needs is to google and she will find us :)

Friday, November 26, 2021

I don't have a life of my own?

I have already got the third dose of the vaccine against covid19. I am glad that I live in a country where the vaccine is available. 

I was upset that my granny (she is almost 90) was already 8 months after the second dose of the vaccine and nobody really bothered whether she gets the third vaccine or not. For me it was really important that she gets the vaccine (the hospitals are full so I strongly believe that each of us has to do everything to prevent putting an extra burden to the hospitals).

Long story short: I persuaded granny that she takes the vaccine and I am glad she got the vaccine yesterday. 

But what bugs me is what my uncle told my mom. He commented that I am sticking my nose into the things that are not my business just because I don't have life of my own. 

Come on? Really? I don't have a life of my own? Just because I am childless, I don't have life of my own?  

The other thing that bugs me is why mom had to tell me his comment? 

It is not only what my uncle said. It is actually what many people think (just don't say it loudly and directly).

His comment hurts.

But I refuse to believe his comment. 

I do have a life. 

It is not a typical life.

But it is mine.

It is the only life I will ever have.

I love it.

It is mine. 

It is quiet, peaceful and at the same time full of life. 

It is mine.

And I don't allow anybody to judge it.

Sunday, November 21, 2021

That is the miracle of life


I have just finished reading an excellent book: Bill Bryson's The Body. I have learnt a lot just by reading it. 

I came across this quote:


“I’ve said it before in another book, but I believe it’s worth repeating: the only thing special about the elements that make you is that they make you. That is the miracle of life.”
Bill Bryson, The Body


It was the moment I realized that I spent way too many years on focusing on the sadness of not being able to have children of my own. By doing that I completely forgot that I already had been blessed by a miracle of life - it is just wonderful that I was born and that I live. Now! 

Sometimes it is really necessary to read something so you are able to see your own life from another prospective. 

It is a beautiful sunny Sunday & off I go to enjoy another lovely walk in the forest. 


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Photos above: were taken yesterday in the beautiful Lake Garda. I spent almost a week there (for work) but I did find some time for walks.


 

Sunday, October 31, 2021

Autumn colours

I went for a drink with  some friends. It was a nice evening, we were listening to a concert of a local band.

I noticed that also the father of the two members was listening to the concert. While listening to the concert I observed the father, he is already in his late 70s.  I know him - during the student years he and his wife stopped many times and drove me to university or back while I was hitchhiking. They were always very kind to me.

His face was shining - he looked so proud and happy when listening to his two sons. His eyes were full of love. He looked like someone who has everything that matters - right there in that moment.

Observing this intimate moment didn't make me sad. I know I will never have exactly that. But I refused to compare my life to any other life. I refuse to do injustice to my life.

I am attaching a photo that I do today on our walk with my husband and our dog. I love warm autumn colours.  I love walking through our beautiful forests so much.