Thursday, November 26, 2020

Ich will mein Leben leben


Sometimes I hear a sentence that I just love.

I was attending Zoom German language course yesterday and we were learning about modal verbs. Someone said a sentence: "Ich will mein Leben leben". = "I want to live my life." Exactly, I couldn't agree more! 

I recently lost my job due to pandemic (hopefully it is only temporary) so I have plenty of time. I don't like the circumstances that brought to it, but I love having the time anyway.

I have time for learning languages, for reading, for going on long walks...

If I see something beautiful on my walks, I have time to stop and admire. Like these two trees that are growing together - like two lovers, hugging and protecting each other. I think they are just wonderful. (I showed them to my husband and told him they are just like us. He smiled.)

The covid19 situation in my country is pretty terrible - mainly because many people are ignoring safety recommendations. 

To protect elderly people in nursing homes the visits there are not allowed. I heard many times the comment from the nursing homes, how elderly people are heartbroken. Since the only thing they look forward in life are visits of their children and grandchildren. Now that the pandemic has taken this away from them, they have no reason to live.

I feel sorry for them, of course. It is sad that they are sad.

But this made me realize that living involuntary childless made me stronger - I had to learn how to find happiness within me.


  1. Yes!! I love this picture! It is so pretty. I also love the German sentence: Ich will mein Leben leben! :)

    I'm sorry you lost your job. I'm glad you are enjoying your time. The pandemic situation is horrendous here in the U.S. and only getting worse. :(

    But I know I will survive. It won't be easy or fun, but we will get through this. I know this because I agree wholeheartedly with you: "Living involuntarily childless made me stronger - I had to learn how to find happiness within."

  2. Dear Klara,

    The title of this post is perfect :-). I think it is important to live our own lives and not the expectations or wishes of other people.

    I am very sorry that you lost your job and hope it will only be temporarily, too! I am glad that you are enjoying your free time though.

    I agree with you - by going through these hard years we have acquired strategies to deal with loneliness and know what helps us feel better. We may depend a bit less on other people because of that even though of course we are still human and generally need social interactions like everyone else.

    Wishing you a very cozy first Advent Sunday <3!

  3. I love that sentence too. And the photo. And this whole post. It's ideal. As Jess said on My Path to Mommyhood, we can miss things (your job and the children we didn't have) but still feel thankful for what we have.

    I wrote a post some years ago quoting figures that showed that those of us who accepted not being able to have children were better able to cope than those who never accepted it, or those who wanted to see their children more than they did.

  4. Oh Klara, I'm just catching up on reading some of your older posts, and I'm so sorry that you lost your job. :( I hope it's only temporary too. It sounds like there are "covidiots" all over the world right now...!