Have you read my post "Mamma mia 2" written five days ago?
Yesterday I got big news, only hours after the pregnancy test: she is pregnant.
I love her. I am happy for her and her family.
But what I truly feel is complete emptiness.
Life goes on.
Tomorrow is another day and I hope it will be a lighter one.
I am ironing clothes for work and while ironing I am listening to this:
https://soundcloud.com/pamela-tsigdinos/childless-voices-on-ivfs-40th-anniversary-convert-video-onlinecom
I am so grateful for this podcast. I feel better just knowing that I am not alone.
You are not alone. Ever. Sending lots of hugs as you process this news.
ReplyDeleteDear Klara, I am so sorry to read that you feel empty. That feeling is quite familiar to me too. I think it will be my companion each time I will find out about a new pregnancy. I also have difficulties to believe that some people can be so fertile: she wants to get pregnant and it comes true almost immediately!
ReplyDeleteYou are not alone Klara, and from my point of view you are very fertile too: you give so much to our community and I'm very grateful for that.
I send you a big hug!
Oh good grief. I mean, good for her, but still... Why did she tell you so soon? What were/are her expectations for you? I get that she's happy and excited, but what does her pregnancy have to do with you? I swear, some people just cannot see beyond their own little bubble...
ReplyDeleteDear Klara,
ReplyDeleteI totally agree with Infertile Phoenix... and I also wonder wether you could talk to her ?
Not to break your friendship of course, but to let her know about your feelings...
If she is a real good friend she should be compassionate and delicate, should'nt she ?
Lots of love,
Sending hugs, too. You are definitely not alone <3.
ReplyDeleteI love the image of you listening to our voices as you do your ironing! :) No, you are not alone. (((hugs)))
ReplyDelete