- after 14 days of not feeling well I am finally OK.
- after many many long and dark years of infertility I am happy that I am not desperate any more. I am happy to be able to see things as they are. And reality is that I have many things to be grateful for, so I am not willing to spend any more time on regreting the things were just not meant to be.
Wednesday, February 12, 2014
A book, laughing at me
One of my favourite hobbies for the last 36 years was visiting local library and choosing books. And almost whenever I go there, I see this book, laughing at me. How much do I hate this book!
Few years ago, when I was in the middle of IVF cycles, I borrowed this book and read it in one weekend. Not that I really liked the style of author's writting, but I loved the story and the message of the book: after failed IVF you have to just keep trying and then one day the luck will be on your side. I guess that the message was completely something else - it is just how I understood it.
Now, whenever I see this book, I feel as it laughing at me.
How come that I was so desperate that I thought that after 3th failed IVFs the 4th will work out?
Or - how come that I was so desperate that I thought that after 9th failed IVFs the 10th will work out?
The answer is simple. I was so desperate.
I am happy today. Reasons: