Wednesday, February 1, 2012
I have a child. I have everything.
This is of course not my sentence. And it will never be mine. . I just heard it yesterday, from my coworker. She is not on permanent contract, so she will probably lose her job. And it was just a sentence to make her feel better. Since it is not a close coworker, she does not know my situation ... so I was not really hurt. I just found my way out from this conversation (I already master it!).
It just got me thinking... is having a child really everything? Can you let your happiness to depend on another human being? I didn't have a choice actually. But it is quite nice feeling to be independand. Only I am responsible for my own happiness.
There are still days that I am dreaming how beautiful would be to have a beautiful baby girl. Who would look exactly as Angela (for example): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a7UFm6ErMPU
But I know that majority of children are average looking, avarage smart, average... in everything. But my child will always be exceptional in everything... in my dreams.
Not all dreams come true. It is just fact of life... Getting older (and I hope wiser)... helps to embrace whatever future brings to me.