Friday, June 12, 2020
After the lockdown
My hands are almost healed. I got my job back (for now only part-time). The epidemic in my country is over (at least for now; I am very certain that there will be a second wave as soon as all the borders re-open).
There were small things that gave me pleasure during the lockdown times.
The new Rolling Stones' song Living in a ghost town. I love it!
Four novels by Elena Ferrante - My brilliant friend.
It is brilliant!
I also watched the HBO series, I loved them.
Babylon Berlin on Netflix.
I tried to go to shops as little as possible. So I have learnt to bake my own bread, it is delicious! I am so proud!
Working on my vegetables garden. I cooked the very first meal with the first vegetables this year: peas.
Having time just to observe. Like this bumblebee on the lavender that we planted this year in front of our home. It is so pretty!
Having enough time to go for a long walk literally every day.
Learning how to use Zoom. I love Zoom dates!!
Childlessness is just part of my life. It is there, but it doesn't bother me any more. As the years are passing by it became as an old wound. You know it is there, but it doesn't hurt any more.
I avoided women who were during the lockdown, when the schools were closed talking constantly how terribly difficult it is to home school children. I was fed up listening to the complaining. I would give everything to be able to homeschool my children.
At least once a month I got an offer from some surrogacy clinic - they wish that I publish their ad on my blog. I just delete those emails. What I think is that surrogacy is morally wrong.
I have just watched news on BBC:
I am happy that a couple got a baby after 10 years of infertility. I am very sure that Manu will have a happy childhood, I wish all three all the best.
But there are also other stories - Bridget's story. A girl who wasn't born perfectly healthy so her American parents decided not to take her home. It is just sad that Bridget has to live in orphanage. I hope she finds a family who will love her and take care of her.