Saturday, August 20, 2016
I am back
I am reading Pascal Mercier's Night Train to Lisbon and I just loved this quote, I wanted to share it with you.
I love long summer days, but I am ready for autumn, rainy days and having time to read and write.
I'm doing very well this summer. I feel already healed most of the time. But then something happens that I realize that infertility pain will always be part of my life.
I found out that my ex boss is pregnant with her first child, aged 43. I didn't meet her often, but when I did, I felt comfortable talking to her - there were never any topics in our conversation that could hurt me. I am happy that her dreams will come true. But what about my dreams? The news really hit me for few days.
Yesterday I met our neighbours son. He was just a teenager when me and my DH were newlyweds and moved to the building. And yesterday I saw him with an infant. I didn't even know that his girlfriend was pregnant, since they don't live here. Better so. Any normal human being would stop and compliment the child or whatever. I just said hello, commented nothing and walked into our flat. You see, I am not healed at all.
I saw this quote - and it just suits my today's mood.