Saturday, July 28, 2012
When I was having all my IVFs I thought frequently of Lesley Brown. How courageous she was (and how desperately wishing a child) that she was willing to take all the drugs and knowing, that no child before was born through that completely new technique.
I read some weeks ago: http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-bristol-18524232
that she died, aged 64. I was said for her. 64 is far too young to die!!!
I do not know why she died. But I am sure that all the infertility drugs did not help her to live longer.
Sometimes I worry about all the drugs that I took during my 10 treatments. I wish I had the courage to stop earlier!
I am in my pyjamas today, with high temperature :(
I had to go on one day business trip with a coworker of mine yesterday. And it was so hot outside and our aircondition in the car was too cold.... my body just doesn't deal well with aircondition.
This coworker knows about all my IVFs and I already told her that we decided to live childfree. But she asked me again yesterday if we changed our mind. And I said no. I do not know why mothers of small children are not able to keep their mouth shut up sometimes. She had to comment further: "You never know, it might happen. I know a case where..." And then I had to stop her. I just asked to never ever tell me this sentence again. Since I am without fallopian tubes, it is not possible. And that her sentence not only gives false hope, but also hurts me.